As a “feelings” person, I often forget about my body. Skin and bones simply frame my soul, the only part of me that seems real. My body is a vehicle, a carrier, a vessel as we called it growing up in church.
What’s the opposite of planted? Uprooted? Ungrounded?
I’ve recently wondered if other sensitive people experience this lack of physical presence too. Do you also float, feeling as if your feet never touch the ground?
The other day, I crossed the street when a car made a right-hand turn on a red as I stepped into the crosswalk. I didn’t see the driver and they didn’t see me; we were both somewhere else. The car turned wide and no one got hurt, but for a moment, I caught my breath and realized I couldn’t feel the concrete beneath me. I had to pinch myself. Am I here? Am I real?
For enneagram 4s, feeling unseen is par for course. It’s no one’s fault, and it’s not even true. But our feelings tell us otherwise. You’re invisible is inscribed and woven into our very genetics. And this only …
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